……….and I was looking at this piece of paper that she gave me.
My mind was very busy! I was thinking of praying too, but on the other hand I was thinking “nah, no point, nothing great will ever happen to you. Things will stay the same even if you talk to God”. This kept on going for many hours. I don’t know why, but I just kept on thinking and thinking about what Aunty Soan said. Finally, I gave up and decided to just pray. like what the Aunty told me to do. I said, “Well, um, here I am God. I have nothing to offer. I have not succeeded in anything in my life. I have no special skills, talents or abilities.” I also told Him that “I’m not smart, normal or quick witted like my siblings.” And I said, “I don’t know how I’m going to help in any way. I don’t know what You are going to do with all my weaknesses. But fine, just take all my failures and weaknesses and do whatever. Show me what You want me to do Lord”. And you know what?! He gave me two things.
1) A whole new/a brand new perspective. For the first time in my whole entire life, for the first time in forever, I finally believe! And right now I finally see, right now my eyes are finally open, open to the truth! I believe that great things can happen to me. I finally believe that God can use me to do great things. This is so cool! I still cannot believe this.
2) He opened the door to this, thealagillesgirl.com. He showed me what He wanted me to do with all the testimonies that I have been collecting in my life (so far). Firstly, He made me feel comfortable and okay with telling my stories to everyone (that’s why now you’re reading this). Before this breakthrough, I would have never ever shared myself/my personal blog (that I had before this website came about) to the public. Seriously, I never will and I never would have, not even my imediate family! So yeah, not only did God open my eyes, He opened my mind (or should I say heart?). Sooo, this is the reason why thealagillesgirl is here today. Today I am finally taking a huge step by revealing my everything to the world! Okay, maybe for now it’s just you, but yeah, I do hope people from different countries will read my story too. And I also do hope that anyone who reads my testimonies/stories, he or she will be encouraged or will help them in one way or another.
Actually, correction, I did show a few people my blog (that I had before this website), but other than that nobody knew about it.
Thanks for reading my first post from the present. God bless!