I wanted a friend, a Christian friend, that I could talk to, but at that time (2013) I had no one. This was just a thought, a wish, it wasn’t a prayer or anything. The next year came by, my dad suddenly told us that we’re going to try out, “this church that I valued” and at first I wasn’t interested. I was happy with the current church that we were attending. And so I didn’t want to change church or visit another church. Guess what? I don’t know how, but I ended up going to that church, one Sunday morning, in the early months of 2014.
“this is my daughter” the pastor’s wife said to me. Yes, I met the pastor’s wife and I met her daughter, on the first day of my visit at this new church. Again, I don’t know how, but I’ve never been to a church where I meet the pastor or the pastor’s wife or the pastor’s daughter on my first day at a new church. What I’m trying to say is here, everything happened so fast! It’s like, it was all planned out for me. Oh and here’s an even more amazing part, I was also automatically part of a cell group on that Sunday, that first Sunday at this new church. Usually, when one attends a new church for the first time, he or she needs time to think, “do I like this church?”, “am I going to make this my church?”, “I want to try out a few cells first, before I decide on one” and this is true for me too. But somehow, on that Sunday, I didn’t think about cell experimenting and heck, I didn’t even thought about joining a cell. I mean, I didn’t even want to go to this church. So, why join a cell here? But, as I said before, everything happened so quickly, so quick that I didn’t think about which cell to join and all. It’s like, God has already planned it all for me, you know. He has already assigned me to a cell. At that time, I didn’t know that it was God who wanted me to attend this church. At that time, I didn’t know what was about to come.
I didn’t know that God would be sending a friend, a Christian friend that I would/could talk to. I didn’t know that I would make new friends!
I would get to learn more about Him and my faith/my trust in Him would grow. I didn’t know know that sweet memories would be made at this new church. I definitely didn’t know that the things that I was depressed about, would turn around. At that time, all I knew, and all I wanted was to, “not go to this new place.”
Even when I’ve completely lost all hope. Even when I stopped believing in every single thing – God, myself, my life, even when I pushed everything away and just wanted my life to be finished. God was there with me. He never left me. He never gave up on me. He never stopped believing in me. He loved me, even in my darkest place. He saw that I was so messed up, He put many sweet memories in that year for me, like the above and…….